Just A Little Bit Better

What if I just did everything I was always supposed to do?

How much further would I be?

And where exactly am I trying to go?

Why I am  never just content with where I am? Even doing this is painful.

I always have really great ideas and I write them down but then when it comes to actually developing those ideas, I get stuck and my mind goes blank. It's like I'm really good at planning projects, ideas, creative things, but the buck stops there. What is it that stops me from going further? I feel like I always have this weight on my chest that stops me from breathing, stops me from moving, and from living.

But I'll keep trying and keep pushing to be just a little bit better than I was before. Hell...I finally wrote my first post today after 2 years didn't I. (yeeeaaaah it may be longer but let's stick with that).